Okay, Mother Nature and I need to have a little talk.
This rain needs to stop. Like, right now. Really. We are soaked. Our back yard is a swamp.
I do not know what it is about this spring, but it has been one of the wettest on record.
I mean, you go into stores and everyone around you looks like zombies...pale with dark circles under their eyes.
And it is making me just a little, teensy bit grumpy. And unmotivated. I don't even want to do my usual cooking and baking. I am un-inspired.
And then, don't even get me started on the job search. I have even started scouring the Craigslist ads in search of people looking for someone to help them clean, organize, etc. their homes. Anything to have something to do and make a little bit of fun money. Anything until I find gainful employment.
Out of the 274 ads I have responded to, only one has written back so far. She was asking for more information to help her make her decision. She mentioned in the email that she had received over 60 emails the first hour she had her ad up. I answered all of her questions, but I guess I wasn't what she was looking for.
So, that just makes me feel fabulous. Not only am I competing with thousands of people in the high-tech industry, I am competing with thousands of people looking to clean piss off of other people's toilets.
It's strange, really. I'll be completely fine for a few days, and then bam! I wake up on days like today and just want to scream. When I think about it, I feel stupid, actually. I mean, I really have nothing to complain about. We live in a nice house, drive nice cars, have food on the table, money to pay the bills. Taking our yearly trip to Denmark in two months. We are the stereotypical middle class family. We aren't wealthy, but we are comfortable.
But after 8 months of being unemployed...I want to work. I want to feel productive. And, seriously, I am not being picky. I have applied to $10/hour part-time receptionist positions.
It's just frustrating.
Anyone else battling the blahs right now?
Thursday, June 11, 2009
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sweetie. you are not stupid or anything in that line.
If it wasn't for you we wouldn't have a nice home and everything organized the way it is.
I know it doesn't feel like a "job" but I also know that there is a lot to do and you do a lot.
thank you :-)
I love you
It rained here for most of the spring. We even had a 100 year flood and it destroyed a lot property. We were lucky it didn't hit our house. Then it turned really really hot like 96 today. The heat will just drain your energy. I hope things turn around for you. A nice few days would help I'm sure.
Aw - your husband is just the sweetest! We've had a lot of rain here too. I find it helps to get out in it and enjoy it anyway... I have a dog so have to make the most of the weather!
Sorry to hear about your job problems. Have you thought of baking cakes/biscuits and selling them to cafés? Or offering some catering services? i.e. use your passion for baking and turn it into a job...
Or maybe make delicious and unusual sandwiches and sell them to office workers?
Or offer dogwalking services (you'd make a killing over here)...
Hugs!
Jacki, my mom feels the same way about work. While I just see it as a place I come to so that I may pay my bills, my mom wants to work evenings after my sister has picked up her kids so she may go to work. She has no need since my sister gives her money to watch her kids and we basically give her anything she wants but she says she needs to get out of the house and do something.
She says that I complain about having to go to work but that if I had to stay home for on month straight I’d go bananas. Maybe she’s right?
Good luck and I hope you find something!
Anyone else hear a "Wahmbulance"? Sorry, I just couldn't resist. ;-)
No really, you just can't stand to feel idle. (Even if in reality you are doing plenty)
Perhaps you could find a way to volunteer doing something. The greatest rewards are not always monetary.
I hope you're able to find something soon. I completely understand about wanting to get out and be employed and useful. The right thing will come along - i sincerely believe that.
Hang in there - the economy will pick up. Some people NEED to work, and it sounds like you are one of them. I would have to do something, like photography, if I could stay home.
And the rain will stop someday!!
I definitely know the importance of wanting to feel useful and smart.
Anything you could do as a volunteer?
How about tutoring high school/college students?
Blah here, too. Fog all morning long, at 72 degrees! That's enough to make me want to nap the day away.
Your husband is very sweet!
I totally understand. I think the weather has a lot to do with it. It's been raining here too - more than I like.
Good luck with the job search. I hope you find something that will breathe a little fresh air and sunshine in your day.
Maybe you could invest in an insanely bright raincoat and boots and go for a walk in the rain everyday - might be fun.
Or you could change you mind and have a baby, hehe, just kidding, but it would give you something to keep you busy. :^)
The baking company idea is good. I wonder if you couldn't sell gluten free baked goods to local grocery stores, coffee shops, etc. Don't know if you'd enjoy that...
Well, at least we know it can't rain forever - hope you have sunny days soon.
Yes, the weather doesn't help your mood. Peter's right. You do have a job but I know it's not the same.
I miss the camaraderie and feeling a part of something. Although I do "work" (teach fitness classes), it's not the same kind of interaction you get seeing people every day. It is rewarding in a lot of ways, though, but money isn't one of them.
There is so much competition for any job right now so rejection is more the norm than the exception.
Have you checked into freelance writing opportunities in your area? One of my friends is a writer and that is what she is doing while she is looking for a full-time position. She is getting very frustrated trying to find a position.
Ha sounds very much like how I'm feeling right now. Bored as anything... oh well. Good luck.
Wow, I can totally relate to how you feel. Like we know that being home and taking care of the house and child is good, but it doesn't feel useful in the grand scheme of things. I don't want to go back to work because teaching is NOT a 9-5 job! ;) But then I do many times just feel pretty worthless here at home.
I hope something comes through for you soon and that you enjoy volunteering with the animals!
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